Chapter 14 Absurd Conduct

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Li An recalled when Yan Luoxi first came to his home as a child, with her missing teeth and two little braids; every time she was tricked by him, she would clench her lips tightly, her eyes full of tears, looking pitifully adorable. He remembered how she looked at him with big startled eyes; how she avoided him like she was dodging a rat; how she sat under the tree during her teenage years, delicate and clear-skinned as if emerging from water...

Without any awareness, Yan Luoxi rolled onto her side, revealing the snowy skin on her shoulder. Li An immediately felt his mouth go dry, blood rushing to his head, realizing just how much he wanted to sleep with her now.

He was her first man, and she was his first woman. Back then, he didn't understand human relationships; even if he had some understanding, the lofty pride in him prevented him from valuing Yan Luoxi. He merely saw her as a doll for releasing his desires without thinking deeply about his feelings towards her.

Only when she suddenly disappeared and he couldn’t find her did he realize how deep she was already rooted in his heart.

The first time the nineteen-year-old春風得意 (feeling successful and triumphant) experienced pain and loss, it turned out that this little girl actually ran away! She even avoided him like a venomous snake, not returning home at all!

After Yan Luoxi suddenly disappeared in those days, Li An once made a big fuss looking for her. Then his elder brother hurried back from overseas and suppressed the whole matter. Losing their adopted daughter could be a big issue or a small one; if it were talked about publicly, people would speculate endlessly, bringing countless troubles.

At that time, the imperial dynasty was fully taken over by his older brother Li Yi, who handled both family matters and business affairs. The elder brother's final explanation to Li An was that they couldn't find Yan Luoxi; to their parents returning from abroad, he said that Yan Luoxi had been picked up by her mother and moved west for living.

Luo An's mother, Gu Xiaobei, was gloomy for many days because of this matter. Even his father had the idea of going to fetch Yan Luoxi back, which secretly delighted Luo An. If his father intervened in this matter, even if Yan Luoxi hid herself like a mouse, she would be found and brought back.

However, his father's thoughts were dissuaded by his mother and elder brother. Usually unreasonable mother suddenly became very magnanimous: Every child is flesh of their mother’s body; it's only right that the daughter should live with her biological mother.

The family gave up searching for Yan Luoxi, but Luo An was unwilling to accept this. He dared not openly go against his brother's wishes and could only search secretly. However, the strength of secret searches was weak; at nineteen years old, he was still inexperienced and ultimately couldn't find Yan Luoxi.

This marked the first time in his life that he had been hit hard. After making some futile efforts, he began to change his life's direction. During this period, his life was very chaotic and absurd.

He started focusing on entertainment life, frequenting bars, nightclubs, casinos, and private clubs loved by rich young men. Sometimes he would come home in the early hours of the morning, other times not return at all. He associated with various women who were either plump or slender, fair or dark-skinned, charmingly seductive; they would unbutton his shirt collar and waist belt as their hands slid over his body like snakes.

Luo An enjoyed the stimulation and pleasure these women brought him, wanting nothing more than to erase Yan Luoxi's initial imprint from his life.

Although these women were terrified of his unpredictable bad temper, he had a bewitching face that could ruin a country, as well as a wealthy family background. He exuded a wild charm deep in his bones, which made fearless women come one after another to pursue and fawn over this handsome devil.

They used various methods to please Luo An; some even fell into depression or attempted suicide for him.

Lì n, in his youthful arrogance, dismissed these expressions of love with disdain. His behavior grew increasingly reckless as he continued to socialize with a group of disreputable friends and caused numerous scandals. He was like an out-of-control car without any purpose, speeding blindly.

The parents, who were unaware of Lì n's wayward ways due to being abroad again, and even his brother, Lì Yì, merely watched with cold eyes. Lì Yì believed that these were just games played by Lì n after a minor disappointment and, from a certain perspective, it was part of life experience. Men often have to go through the trials of worldly affairs before they can endure the hardships and solitude later in life. Once Lì n had his fill of this chaos, he would naturally return to his old self.

But those days filled with laughter, wine, and unrestrained intimacy did not last long; Lì n indeed grew weary of them.

This lavish lifestyle, full of music and revelry each day, failed to bring him joy or help him forget. Sometimes he thought he had successfully erased the memories left by Yán Luòxī, but whenever he was with other women, it remained unsatisfying.

It just wasn't her; ultimately, it couldn’t be anyone else.

Lì n felt utterly defeated. He realized clearly that his relationship with Yán Luòxī went beyond mere physical acts—it was an emotion deeply rooted in his life, firmly attached and irreplacable by any other person or method.

He had lived this way long enough and began to curb his behavior, returning to the life he used to lead—a handsome, aristocratic existence with a proud self-control.

Until he met Yán Luòxī again, setting off another wave of madness...

Lì An looked at Yan Luoxi sleeping, gazing tenderly with a silent苦笑.

He knew that drug addiction was due to the formation of receptors in the brain, leading to dependence. Once hooked, it wasn't easy to quit. To Lì An, Yan Luoxi was his poison; he was well aware that the more he interacted with her, the more addicted he became. However, despite being usually shrewd, his self-control in this aspect was exceptionally weak.

Lì An couldn't figure out what necessary reason there could be for him to act against his heart and distance himself from Yan Luoxi.

After a night's sleep, Yan Luoxi felt better by the next morning, though she looked somewhat listless.

Lì An had someone deliver a new phone to Yan Luoxi again. When she saw the phone, her eyes lit up, and she seemed much more energetic. Taking advantage of Míng Zixi and Shào Junhe coming over to chat with Lì An in their usual confusing manner, she slipped away once more, heading to the mall where Zhōu Guangtao had bought her a phone to return it.

With a small wad of money in her pocket, Yan Luoxi felt very secure. She bought a bag of chocolate candies and was contentedly munching on them as she walked back towards the hospital.

Having learned from Yan Luoxi's sneak-out experience the day before, Lì An kept his eyes on her all day long today. When he saw her sneaking out with a furtive look, he inwardly groaned. Ten minutes later when she still hadn't returned, he felt his blood pressure rise and became very unhappy, especially after Míng Zixi told him in an eerie manner that he had seen Zhōu's kid the previous day, who was now serving as a regional director for a multinational company in Asia.

Yan Luoxi's frequent disappearances made Lì An, with his naturally suspicious nature, believe she must have gone to meet that successful Asian region director. She simply didn't want to stay here with him.s burning hot. "You really have a fever!""Yes, today I spent the whole day outside your company building, enduring the northwest wind. Since you didn't come down, I got tired and hungry and ended up w...