Chapter 2002: Self-Blame and Sorrow

s own principles. He shook his head solemnly and said, "No, Tangtang, I have to go back to the capital."An Xuetang narrowed her eyes, "I know."“I am not by your side. If you were to become pregnant, w...As soon as An Xuetang entered the room, her gaze accurately focused on Kang'er and Shou'er who were holding the baby.

Her eyes instantly welled up, tears silently sliding down her cheeks.

After her vision blurred, she couldn't bear to lose sight of her child, so she quickly reached up and wiped away her tears.

Kang'er and Shou'er, upon seeing their empress Anran return, felt a weight lifted from their hearts. These past few days had been filled with worry, but now they couldn't help but smile, though their eyes still held traces of tears.

Both of them couldn't help but burst into tears with joy.

The two of them didn't want to cry at this time, but some emotions suddenly surged up, and they couldn't help it no matter how hard they tried.

On the other side, An Xuetang didn't notice the change in their emotions.

Her eyes swept over Pingping and Anan, then, after her excitement had subsided a bit, she lifted her foot and walked step by step to Kang'er and Shou'er.

She nervously pressed her lips together, her gaze falling on the two rosy little faces in the cradle.

Pingping and An'an's peaceful faces were scanned by An Xuetang several times before she couldn't help but shed tears.

It's only been a few months since we last saw each other, but the two children have both grown a little. As people say, kids change every day.

If it weren't for the child's eyebrows and eyes resembling her dear Ah Jing, she wouldn't dare to recognize him.

It was her, as a mother, who lacked responsibility. She actually dared to abandon her nursing child at the palace.

They had just been born when she so ruthlessly left them.

Every time she thought about this, An Xuetang couldn't forgive herself.

Kang'er and Shou'er watched their princess weep uncontrollably. They wanted to comfort her, but didn't know where to begin.

But one can't just stand by and watch their Queen consort continue like this.

After some thought, Shou'er finally said to her, "Your Majesty, would you like to hold the two young masters"

An Xuetang came to her senses. She almost without thinking nodded, and reached out to hug An An from Shou'er's arms.

It took both hands to lift it, and she immediately thought of her long journey, covered in dust and grime. It had been days since she'd properly washed herself. She couldn't just hold them like this.

A child's immunity is weak, and her whole body is very dirty. She can't just be held like this.

On realizing this, her eyes instantly grew distant and forlorn. She helplessly withdrew her hands.

Having witnessed her actions, Kang'er and Shou'er both had a look of bewilderment in their eyes. The two exchanged glances subconsciously and then simultaneously looked up at her.

Even before the two of them could ask, An Xue Tang knew they had questions. She took the initiative to explain:

"I haven't had a shower for several days, and these clothes I'm wearing have been on for three whole days now. They're very dirty. It wouldn't be appropriate to hold them like this; they're still young and their resistance to illness isn't strong."

After hearing their queen's explanation, Shou'er and Kang'er understood, so they didn't say anything more.

But both knew their princess must miss the two children very much, so Shou'er gently moved An'an in her arms towards An Xue Tang and said softly:

"Your Highness, why don't you take a look first After the Crown Prince learned that you and His Royal Highness had returned, he instructed the kitchen staff to prepare not only meals but also hot water. Once the kitchen staff has prepared the hot water, Your Highness can wash up."

An Xuetang nodded, her gaze falling on Pingping and An'an's small faces.

Both children were exceptionally handsome, even at just a few months old, one could tell that they would undoubtedly grow into dashing young men like Pan An in the future.

Perhaps it's a mother's love filter, but An Xuetang actually felt that these two children would probably be more handsome than their father when they grew up.

Ping Ping and An An were both still asleep at this moment. Looking at the two sleeping faces, An Xue Tang's mouth curled into a faint smile, her whole body exuding the temperament of a mother, with such tenderness in her eyes.

After scanning Pingping and An'an's faces again and again, she finally spoke, "During the days I was away, have these two little ones been well-behaved Have they been causing trouble Are they eating properly"

Shour respectfully inclined her head. "To the Princess Consort, both young masters sleep and eat well."

The two young masters are indeed very dependent on the Queen's aura. The wet nurses almost have to wear the Queen's clothes every time they breastfeed. If they don't, the two young masters are very picky and won't even let the wet nurses hold them.

An Xuetang raised an eyebrow and smiled ambiguously, "Newborns can't recognize people yet, but they recognize scents. If they don't smell something familiar, they might react with resistance."

Though the two children might feel a little resistance towards each other, at least they have been nursing well these days and haven't gotten so thin that she feels heartbroken and wants to slap herself hard.

Actually, An Xue Tang didn't know that every time Pingping and An An drank their milk properly, it was only Pingping.

An An, the little master, was not always cooperative when it came to drinking milk. He had previously resisted being touched by the wet nurse.

The other day, he was so thin that it broke my heart. However, these past ten days or so, I don't know what has changed, but An An surprisingly hasn't resisted the wet nurse at all. He even drinks several feedings a day.

Once he is hungry, he will cry. When the wet nurse arrives, sometimes he does not even need to have his royal consort's clothes changed; he is willing to drink.

So over the past ten days or so, I've managed to put some weight back on, and it doesn't look as pitiful as before.

Kang'er and Shou'er didn't know whether they should tell their Princess about this, but seeing their Princess so heartbroken and remorseful now, even without knowing what the young master had gone through, they were moved.

If she were to know the details of An An's life these past few days, Her Royal Highness would probably feel even more guilt and sadness.

At this point, Kang'er and Shou'er exchanged glances, both reading each other's thoughts in their eyes.

Both fell silent, unwilling to add details that would further distress their princess.

An Xuetang didn't know how much effort it took to hold back from reaching out to hug the two children.

Her eyes were fixed on the two children as if she could not bear to take them off for a moment.

Just like that, Ping Ping and An An stared at each other, not knowing how long it had been until Shou'er suddenly realized something. She spoke up, "By the way, Your Highness, where is the King Didn't he return with you"

Having been reminded by Shou'er like this, he suddenly seemed to come back to his senses. He abruptly raised his head and turned to look towards the doorway.

The door to the house was open, but from this angle, one could not see Mo Yunjing and Mo Junyi in the courtyard.

She frowned slightly, her lips parting as if about to call out to Mo Yunjing outside the door, but then she suddenly seemed to realize something and chose to keep silent.stablish Xuntang Valley, or why I would risk my life to protect her.""Indeed, in this life, I have no blood relation with A Tang. However, long, long ago, A Tang was my younger sister. It's just that...